够了

最终...我还是哭了...还以为我是能控制自己的...但，眼泪还是随着寂寞的情绪流了出来！！

为什么？？为什么每次我都不是你们的一分子呢？？我做错了什么吗？？你们知道每当看到你们玩得多开心但我就是不那其中之一...我的心好痛好失望...你们能了解吗？？...真的很伤！！每当觉得...我开始和你们亲近了些...但到后来还是被冷某了...更伤！！

是我对“友情”这两个字的期望太高了吗？？还是我根本就不明白什么是友情...
有朋友说过...没钱就等于没了朋友...这句话是真的吗？？...对于友情...我是百分之百的付出...根本就不求回报...为什么换来的却还是自己一个人...根本没人懂我...想要知道我在想什么...还在怀疑着...如果有一天我死了...会有多少朋友回来出席我的葬礼呢？？

我不想以后回忆起在这地方读书的时候... 只想起我自己一个人的画面...而不是和大家快乐玩着的情景！！

好累啊...我是不是应该放弃对友情的渴望...变成一个什么都不管...对别人没反应的一个人呢？？可是我就是不想...

好想离开这个地方...

felt better than yesterday...

Tired...tired...tired...just came back from shopping with my Hailuo Forest friends..but just window shopping...no money already...haizzzz

today morning....3++am...my friend and me...drink...and was chatted a lot of thing within this time...thank a lot to him because he really told and gave many suggestion to me how to face to the problem...he always saying..."just be yourself"...ya...i really agree what he said...I told him about some private affair of me to him....he also shared with me about his problem....haizz....life...life...life....no matter how hard or what kind of problem you face...we still have to solve it and over the problem....

now...i m just trying to be more mature to think about everything i face....if didn't have friends to accompany me...just be alone...never mind...so time will be more happy...don't think so much....

thank you my "friend" that told me a lot of affair...and shared your experience to me...


nite world.........

I Hate Myself...

I hate myself...i hate the way i did that will hurt some one...!!!

I hate I cannot handle all the thing well...!!!

I hate that I cannot tell you what is on my mind...!!!

I hate myself can't even find the guts to express my feeling...!!!

I'm sorry for everything...sorry that i dint stand on your standpoint what is on your mind...how will you feel it...but no matter i did...my starting point just treat everyone well...no harm...

Sorry that let you disappointed of me...but i just don't like when people ask me to help him/her in the order way...I don't like...but i don't know why i will gave the stupid reaction that will let you disappointed of me...i'm so sorry...so sorry...

I hate myself...i hate you tanpeeyee...bitch!!!

rushing day...

5.30pm...I reach my hometown...Lenga...

after shower...went to my relative wedding...that y i will came back to here...

the protagonist...is really beautiful...she have a slim body...small and cute face...that is what i want...so envy...

I wish this 2 newlyweds will happy always....